So I went to Gerad’s work again after class. After about 30 minutes of sipping my hot water infused with lime and lemon, we eventually reach a conversation where we talk about our “type.”
So here’s how my “standards” list went:
- Educated (Must be in college or finished college)
- Money (Must not be struggling financially)
- Taller than me (This is actually a PLUS, not a standard)
- Good at something (Not video games! Musical instruments, art, sports, etc.)
That’s it. Gerad then asked me about personality, which I said I had no preference for. My reason for saying that is - Sure. Everyone has different personalities, but I find that it’s up to you to adapt to a certain kind and mesh well with the personalities. Also, I don’t find that you “really” know a person until you’re actually with them (dating). Once you’re dating that person I think you get to see both extremes of the person (good & bad). So basically - I find that you can still find some sincere goodness and genuine aspect to that person, despite personality.
The con with this of course is you have to be extremely patient. I noticed that, thanks. No one has the patience to hang out with an asshole and wait until he does a genuine move. “Thanks asshole.”
Well of course I didn’t say that as eloquent as I wanted. I kind of struggle with saying my thoughts aloud actually. So I just said “I HAS NO PREFERENCE FOR PERSONALITY, HEAHEH.” Gerad was kind of taken aback, stating that a of people have shit personalities - that some people chose to stay close minded, some people act as if they know issues, some people are just obnoxious.
The con with this is my argument at the top ^. Just because someone’s an asshole doesn’t mean they’re a COMPLETE asshole.
BUT! Back to the point. After looking at my standards Gerad pointed out that I’m superficial????????
Basically, what bothers me is that I care about personality to the point where I accept almost any personality - to the point where I almost don’t care about (because in my ignorant little head I can somehow mesh with anyone, I just have to be patient enough) - to the point where I chose to dissect myself from even considering the notion of personality - to the point where personality is not a standard
which brings me to the conclusion,
I’m superficial. Fuck.
$$$$$, Talent, Taller, Cute, College Grad. Yum.
Good luck finding that Cheerful. You shit.